back and forth, flip-flop, this and that

Indecision. I personally shouldn't complain about this trait, in relation to other people, when I suffer from it. However, while I am aware of my own indecision, I feel that I can point out the hypocrisy of others.

I recently found someone to renew my lease with me. We found each other through craigslist, sketchy? Yes and no. We exchanged emails and seemed to click. (Seriously.. why couldn't I have the lawyer?) Anyway, Labor Day weekend she was supposed to move in that Friday, no.. then Saturday.. then she made me wait four and a half hours to hear from her... then I said, "Come on Monday, noon."

Honestly, at this point I wished I was the Fonz and could have said "Be there, whoa." But I'm really not that tuff.

So.. Monday... she doesn't get here until 6. Awesome. I've already given so much, but I'm figuring that maybe this is just a rusty start to something great. Well... I'm so caught up with having someone to renew my lease with; I just need one more person, that I forget to see things that are really not okay. For example, calling my friends and sister "hippies" because they are vegan and/or vegetarian. When I corrected her by saying "Honestly, we all identify as the following; anarchists, socialists (then pointed at myself) and other." She just said "Oh no, you're all hippies." Being called a hippie, to me, isn't a bad thing. In fact its a lot better than many things one could be called, however, its the insulting manner in which she uses the word that offends me. She also said that she likes to make racist statements, and she excuses this because she "doesn't mean it" and she's "socially aware."

Seriously... punch in the face. But again, I'm not that tuff.

Can I also state, she's just a few feet away from me. She's a walking noise-pollution-factory. Seriously.. go away. I was beginning to enjoy having the house to myself. However, that is not the case. At least until the end of the month.

So.. anyway, the plans to renew the lease with her fell through. She emailed me and said she needs to live alone. She can afford it and that's the adult thing to do. Guess what... within the week that's she's been here, I've come to feel very comfortable with that.

Ahhhh.. I could say so much more, but I don't really want to. Anyway, I'm going to be moving back to my parents at the end of the month. I wish things were different, however, I should have trusted my intuition. I knew things would end like this, I'm happy that they are. I really am. So, things will change, but hopefully for the better. The best thing about moving back home, I'll be saving so much more money. I know I'll be able to get in all the traveling I've been wanting to do, wanting and finding necessary to my sanity.

Anyway, I'm going to update my resume, hopefully tomorrow night. Afterward, I hope to apply to some more jobs. I'm not sure about the one I just applied for, its in the office I currently work in, and because no one is mature enough to not be offended by people moving around in the office, I might not get the job.

And I end this post with one word, as I began it. Unstable.