So much I could say

Do you have people in your life that bring good things to your life no matter what?

Whether its something petty (otherwise insignificant to someone else) or profound.. they never have bad things to give. They're not unrealistic people, but they're always looking at things in a positive light and just entirely simple people. Peaceable. Enjoyable.

I have one such person. While this may seem trivial. One part of our relationship is the music she tells me about and tells me to listen to. I honestly don't think there is any music she's told me to hear that I don't like. Some I like more than others, but over all... she has amazing taste in music. She's my record store.

Just a short list of the music she's prescribed over the years:
(* = this music is essential to my existence)

AIR
The Avett Brothers
*Badly Drawn Boy
*Belle & Sebastian (this makes me nostalgic)
Bright Eyes
Blink 182 (I'm not ashamed)
*Broken Social Scene
Cocorosie
Daft Punk
Figurine
The Go! Team
Jinxed At Twelve
Jon Brion
Matt & Kim
Mogwai
Mum
*The Postal Service
Regina Spektor
Rilo Kiley
Romeo & Juliet Soundtrack (both discs)
*The Strokes
*Sufjan Stevens
*Tegan and Sara (from the beginning!)
Wilco
Wolf Parade
*Yeah Yeah Yeahs

This isn't even the half of it.

i don't like being an adult

Making other people happy is important to me. While I should not live to satisfy others and leave myself dissatisfied, I truly find joy in pleasing others. I just felt like sharing. I am not in any way complete with the things I need to do for myself. But I am continuing to open myself to new ways of seeing, understanding and changing myself and it feels amazing.

Taking one step at a time and I breathe all the way there.

not having to explain yourself

Since Fall 2005 I've fallen "off track" with school. I haven't taken a full semester of classes since Spring 2005. I continued taking classes until Fall 2006, but part time and frequently dropped/failed classes. Undeservedly passed by the will of gracious professors. Whats most frustrating about this is aside from the fact that I haven't known and still don't really know what I want to do with my life, I'm not sure why this happened. I know it was in 2005 that I allowed myself to change, to embrace myself being someone I wanted to be. I could frequently be accused of over-analyzing, thats appropriate in many cases and this time, I feel like I need to stop asking questions. I need to accept that things are different, they'll continue to change. I am going to have to adjust.

Since realizing this, I've come to the conclusion that I really need to not care about what my major is and just finish my bachelors. Begin my exploration to what I want to do with myself afterward. There are things I aspire to be, not be, but enjoy. I need to work toward them, harder than I have. And I'll say that part of my not trying hard enough is because I haven't known what to work toward. But I want to take each day one at a time. Look to the future, but enjoy whats on my plate and be content with what I have.